6 July 2012.i woke this one morning and felt empty like i had lost it all...well the love i believed i had

a letter to my heart

I never understand how you decide to hold on, 
Give it all, hold back, hurt, and yet you keep me going 
Often there is battle between you and my mind, and you somehow always win. I want to protect you, but I trust the decisions you make 

I remember when we agreed not to do this again! When we said no more going back, but for some reason were back there, Same pain! 
When happy, you and I create a fairy-tale...we put all parts of the puzzle together 
All the characters of the play...and when they decide to live its just you and me 
I have to pick you up...and find our way back 
Wish they told me they won't stay long 
Wish I knew it was just for a while...that sooner or later the song will stop playing 
That one song we sang along to, danced to, that it would just be a memory one day 
That face I never met 
The hand I never held, felt, touched..the smile I saw from a distance 

But I swear it happened...we met,maybe not in reality, but somewhere we did, got married, saw the future in the eyes I can't tell the color 
Danced to a song that never stopped playing, laughed together 
Held hands...we did it all and it felt real 
Just until I had to wake up to a sound of a goodbye 
That one thing I feared the most 
And now this room feels empty... 
That face I never met...the hand I never held, the smile I saw from a distance 
The river will keep pouring, I know trees will remain green as long as in season, and I know one day you will be stronger, strong enough not to fall apart when a dream ends... 
When we wake up in the morning you will embrace the new day and take up the challenge 

And all this will be another chapter in our story