to LOSE

The thing about loss is
It makes you want to start over. change how the room looked
changed your hair, just something so your mind body and soul is aware of the loss

i cant forget you
i cannot even try. they think i choose to hold on
but is it wrong? that the pain is the only proof that you were real
that silent aching in my heart says it was not a dream

forgetting you will mean i have to forget myself
forget how when you smiled i smiled
when you laughed i would stop first listen to you laugh
you face was glowing and i found that magical

to forget you means shutting down any music i know
the colors, the wind , the rain
i will need enough power to even stop the day
because even time communicates ho much i miss you
not only that but it tells our story
how we had time to...time to...
to me it's still that song that never stops playing

the pain hurts and yet i find the need to embrace it
time goes by and i have no way to stop
pause or breath
i cant forget you
unless i forget myself
before i plan on forgetting you, i have to be
i have to be ready to forget myself
to forget who i am, who i was
with you....